I Didn't Know I'd Let It Die

by In Spirit

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1.	Rot (Prod.Nura) (free) 01:20	lyrics	download
I ripped open my ribs to let someone in I felt used knowing where I had just been I got so tired of having useless limbs I wasn't perfect - Some things were still upsetting me You're no cure but a remedy I'd put myself through endless pain Just to feel your love fill my veins - One last time Were you ever really mine? I dissected every little flaw Everything visible deemed slightly wrong I am cold and I am weak I killed the last thing that made me complete I was handed heaven and hell is what I brought So dear god please let me rot
2.	Ashes (Prod.$ihenc) (free) 02:25	lyrics	download
What'd you say again? Are you late again? I'm in pain again I think I will be stayin in The song you sent, I'm still playin it What you saying then? Where you fuckin staying then? I evaporate, I can't fill your plate You look so lovely covered in ashes Remember when you told me I was a box full of matches Now you're on fire and I'll sit and watch it happen We were born to disintegrate let's try not to reiterate It can happen once, it can happen twice Just talk me up, tell me I'm lookin nice Reverse the process of growth // Make my life slow Pull me from my roots it'll happen soon Feed me promises, I wanna hear something new Leave me vacant, while you walk away richer I'll rest in peace knowing I was in your picture Carve within my chest, my heart is yours to rest
3.	Bitter (Prod.Phvxntm) (free) 03:16	lyrics	download
Breathing in your absence has become a task   Every gasp I took I’d wish for my last   I never found you at the bottom of a flask  If you wanted one last thing you could’ve just asked    Constant wish that it was like November  Because that was the last month where you couldn’t be remembered  I went n’ moved the photo from the shelf to the dresser   Keeping it tucked away made things a little better   Taking you in felt like living in filth  You brought plague into this home we once built  You grinned looking down at all the blood that I’ve spilled  - And you laughed looking down at all the love that you've killed Living in your light for years its always been so dim   The time passes by and you haven’t let me in   The promises you’ve made had always run so thin  Gone for months at a time, wondering where have you been   So yeah I may be bitter but at least I’m not a bitch  I hope the day you get that license you end up in a ditch    Gouge out my eyes for something a new  maybe a set that have never looked at you   Sever my hands for a pair that you’ve never touch  Baby when I’m chopped I’ll finally be enough   Don’t hit my line because theres nothing to discuss   Every other emotion was drowned out by disgust  This is not something you can mask with your lust  You and I can’t coexist so that means there no us    You can drive past Chateau and no one will be home  Sleep in my old room see what that bed is like alone   Feel what it’s like to have to call my phone   It's cliche but maybe I’m better on my own
4.	Dissolve (Prod.Snrklr) (free) 03:48	lyrics	download
See you in a cemetery mid day in January Some mornings you'll still be there it always varies I remember when you caught me downstairs My numb lips cold feel your stare Not a word from me because you were well aware You know what happened just moments before No room for judgement that's something you can't afford Sometimes I wonder if I really let you down But you've done the same and more so I still play the clown You called my phone 24 times You can tell the truth when they ask "Where was I?" You can fuck me up 24 times But when I finally do it I'm the bad guy I hope this winter you decide to stay inside I can't bare to see you out all the time You never catch me staring, you seem just fine IF YOU LET US DISSOLVE WOULD IT BRING US PEACE AFTER ALL? / / / / IF YOU ASKED ME HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW I COULDN'T SAY THAT YOU MADE ME PROUD Without you here the time flys by I used to collapse but now I'm just fine I neglected to nourish the memories this time I didn't know that I'd let it die Don't get it wrong I didn't forget I think I'm just distracted at best The transition from obsessed to suppressed You'd wish my last words were for you with a blade to my neck You wanna keep tabs so you can always check You can hope everything's for you You always think you can see right through You love to think I carry no more depth Than your name and how it makes upset You crawled through my wounds just to manifest You pride yourself with my own lack of rest You hate the thought of me at my very best You want to abuse me but there's nothing left I think it'd best if you left..
5.	Glass (Prod.SidWhite) (free) 03:41	lyrics	download
Mid November winds slashing at my cheeks I been walking in circles I got blisters on my feet Standing in debris and dirt just to lay around When our home shattered it didn't make a sound Completely silent for the two made out of glass From the fucking start we knew it wouldn't last The sun comes up and I haven't moved at all The sun comes up and I'm still staring at my wall I remember the summer with that piece of shit phone You were away while I was at home all alone That's when I came across a sensation to take your place Every day since I took 400 to the face Don't act like it kills you when you brought this on yourself This bottles empty 'cause of me I don't need no fucking help Don't act like you care if I take care of myself How does one become absolutely nothing? How did I lose my desire to ever be something? The best kind of feeling is one that is numbing I just called Asmodeus to ask if he's still coming Learned a lesson on how to disappear Because staying right here became my greatest fear Love, life All of the above is overbearing Be careful what you wish for 'cause I can't take off this mask that I've been wearing I got the same look on my face for 24 hour a fucking day I start to wonder if the shit will ever go away The burden of breath or being vacant, which one will it be? Finding balance between the two will be the death of me I guess I get what I give when I treat it like a game I cannot offer little and still expect the same Why is perfection so hard to maintain?
6.	Wilted (Prod.Vgly) 01:27	lyrics	buy track
I will let you down I detach when no ones around Severed dreams from a hospital bed It won't take long Close your eyes and the pain is gone Aren't you sick of feeling sick? Haven't you given in? I don't think I have much left Forcing notes from a bone dry pen With nothing to be said Words make it harder in the end I am wilted and you're well overspent